Give or take
Life seems to have a lopsided pattern to it. One day I wake up exhausted because I stayed up too late. Another day I have a song on my lips as I head to the gym. The continuous push and pull are like the tides that keep everything in motion. There is no endless movement forward and thankfully no permanent backward movement sucking the sand out from under my feet. I might wobble but catch my balance eventually. The only trick I have learned is not to fight back too hard. Events have thrown me down to the ground multiple times. Noticing the bump that forms on my head after so many falls, I figured out how to hold onto my center. Yes, it took quite a while. Optimism and stupidity reside in me in equal portions. If life is a game, no one wins all the time in the conventional sense. Being a sensitive human has also included tearing up at videos that show snuggling cats and dogs, commercials about holidays, and it is nearly impossible for me to resist tik-toks that document returning military. I hesitate to categorize those as push or pull but try not to look away because they help me recall how satisfying it is to be able to still be shocked by the world’s effect on me.
You are Extraordinary!
Week 5: This week, feel how you sway in the wind.
This exercise seems like it needs to be documented. Your body and soul are not glued anywhere. They breathe, they move, they tumble. Notice how little you resemble stone. Try and feel fluid. I love water so being loose feels delightful. I don’t want to be so hard that I can’t bend. I am watching myself carefully to see where my rigor mortis creeps in.
How do you feel now?
